The time is NOW!!

All day a part of me was feeling down because I supposed to be in Florida celebrating with my closest friends. However, so consumed with wasting time feeling bad for myself, it distracted me from appreciating the smaller but bigger moments that happened today.

It started off with an unexpected email from one of my best friends just expressing her faith in me and her taking a moment to make me see myself the way that she sees me. I don’t know what it was about that particular email because this is by far not the first time one of my friends have expressed their faith or offered their support but I was instantly touched and something within me turned on.

Of course with the constant distractions in the average day that feeling started to wane but suddenly that fleeting moment was brought back to life when I was visited by another friend of mine this evening. We had such an intriguing conversation and I walked away from it feeling so moved and liberated.

For far too long I have conjured up countless excuses as to why I am not actively pursuing what I feel I am here to do and today made me realize that the TIME IS NOW! I admit that I was a victim of allowing fear control aspects of my life and I know that living life in fear at the end of the day is not living life at all. And now is the time to live by what I claim to know. I know I have a lot to offer. I know that I am talented. I worked on my self confidence over the years so the problem has not been self doubt. It was the fear that what I have to offer won’t be appreciated and the last thing I wanted was to expose my inner self only for it to be done in vain. But I realize now that I have been foolish to think this way. And if in fact I’m able to affect at least one person, I have done my job. All is takes is one person. All it takes is one day. All is takes is one lucid moment. All is takes is faith.

I am so blessed to have the life I live and the friends and family that I have.

I end this post with my best friend’s and one of my favorite quotes by Nelson Mandela:

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, "Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?" Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

Give it your all to be your best self everyday. :)

And she dreams...

I had the most amazing dream last night. The beginning remains vague however I remember that there were a series of events going on and I was with this man; a man that apparently I loved and loved me in return. Suddenly I was on this lawn that stretched out for miles and I was surrounded by hundreds of people. It appeared as though I was at a family reunion although it wasn’t my family, it was his. So there I was in the center of all these beautiful, smiling faces, ranging from infants to Grandparents and the love penetrated to my soul. As soon as I was starting to take it all in, I hear a voice from a microphone saying “It is my honor to introduce you to the love of my life. Please welcome her into your hearts as she has taken her place in mine.” Tears of joy flowed immediately as I was approached by his family in small groups as they introduced themselves and gave me the warmest hugs.

I woke up of course to nothing of the sort however I look forward to one day thinking to myself: “this is exactly like my dream.” :)

Love at first sight.

I can't even begin to count the amount of times people have asked me if I believed in love at first sight. The more logical side of me figures that "love at first sight" is ridiculous and simply a figure of ones imagination. I mean, c'mon, how can someone be "in love" with someone just by looking at them, before investing the time to get to know them? What is your so-called love being based on? Looks? How the lights shines in his eyes?? Give me a break. But at the same time, the more romantic and eternal optimist side of me concludes that "anything can happen" although I had yet to have a personal experience with this notion...not until yesterday.

I was on the Internet and it was there I laid eyes on perfection! Feast your eyes on Fendi's Patent Spy Bag

Ahhh...Immediately my heart skipped a beat, maybe two, tickled with butterflies, smiling from ear to ear...completely overwhelmed with euphoria. Now this is what I call love at first sight! So I figure that if it's possible with an inanimate object than why not with a human being??

hehehe.... ;)

The 2007 Black Face

Apparently BET is running low on ideas to entertain the masses because now it seems as though they are desperate enough to compromise everything we fought so hard to eradicate, for a good laugh. To Hell with the fact that we’re still regarded by many as uncouth, worthless individuals, let us continue to play an active role in cementing these stereotypes into the minds of the masses! Huh?? I am so confused. I was under the impression that BET’s visions was to uplift, empower and educate the black community as well as prove to others that tune in that we’re not a product of the negative perceptions that we have been branded with. Now this show, "Hot Ghetto Mess, which in my opinion is the 2007 Black Face, (both playing a significant role in shaping the perceptions and prejudices about African-Americans) will be aired on July 25th and when that’s all said and done they will wonder why people feel the way that they do or say the things that they say. I don’t mean to come off as someone who doesn’t have a sense of humor or takes things too seriously but damn, when are we going to start taking responsibility? Conveniently AFTER the damage is done?? It’s ridiculous & offensive, straight up.

No pilot has been released so I’m not certain what direction this show is leaning towards but I’m hoping that it’s more towards a “what NOT to do…” as opposed to simply exposing this lifestyle and poking fun at it. *shaking my head in disgust*

A Perfect Love

America’s frantic search to find “perfect love” has grown uncontrollable over the years, and in this day and age the outlets that are available to us are endless. From Reality TV Shows, Internet Dating Services, etc., one has every reason to feel hopeful on their quest. However, the question is, does a “perfect love” exist?? Here we are practically killing ourselves and going for blood for something that may not be humanly possible to attain.

I suppose it depends on how one defines a perfect love. I think that we have the tendency to use the phrase loosely although in my opinion; the word “perfect” is very subjective.
One can regard a perfect love as a love that is unconditional, untainted and pure, a love that is unwavering and unflawed. But realists, like me, know that this dangerous way of thinking is a dream deferred and people who carry on with these standards are only seeking an inevitable disappointment. The truth is the beauty of a perfect love is one that is far from perfect and yet still able to grow and prevail.

However I have come up with a solution for those that feel that they can beat the odds. Those that truly believe the unattainable is in fact attainable! The catch is that there are a few things that you have to be willing to let go of in order for this to be achieved:

1. Chuck those Princess Wedding dreams out the window: If you want that type of perfect love you can’t get married.

2. The nature to care about what others say about you: My suggestion might have the nosey neighbors calling you outside of your name but you’ll get no where if you allow negative criticism deter you from your dream.

3. Clinginess: You can’t get attached to anyone. You have to know when it’s time to let go and move forward without looking back. EVER!

Take a moment to reflect on relationships in your past and think about the time you were happiest? Normally it’s the first 3 months of each relationship, right? It’s during that time that you have butterflies; your cheeks hurt so much from smiling all the time, you simply feel happy to be alive! It is also during this time the men normally go above and beyond to win your graces with their thoughtfulness and charm…basically it is during this time that you meet their representative and not the real man that you’re dating…lol.

Well, eventually the novelty wanes and what started off as perfect, isn’t so perfect after all. So with that said, for those that want a perfect love here’s what I suggest: during the span of each year, date a new man every 3 months (1 per season) that way, you can achieve what I consider to be “perfect love,” (according to the unrealistic standards). Don’t be so quick to dismiss this idea. If one can find complacency with never settling down with one person in order to enjoy perfect loves throughout their lifetime then why not?? Yeah you might break hearts along the way when you disappear, so to relieve yourself of the anguish of knowing that you hurt someone, make sure to send a thank you note as a small token of your appreciation. ;)

In case you didn’t notice this post is sarcastic. I’m just being silly